MY LIFE!!!

i love my little!

i love brad paisley.

so i got called back for little red. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i know i'm not cast (yet hopefully) but it is such a honor to be called back as a sophomore non theatre major since that NEVER happens. callbacks are on tuesday...kepp your fingers crossed for me kids :)

packing sucks balls.

i know im not going to see everyone i want to before i leave

ready but not ready to go down to SD

so I might as well update...

i'm feeling spread very thin but in a good way. my job is a lot of work but it is easy at the same time. and i'm just happy to have it. summer school sucks majorly...but i just have to keep telling myself that it is 2 more classes i wont have to take during the school year. i have decided to continue with my BFA in dance and double major with a BA in theatre emphasis on performance. I realize that this is disgustingly ambitious but its what i want to do so i will make it work.

cats is...well going. i enjoy the work out and the sweat but it has come about the time when i am getting fed up with the stupid questions or people not listening during rehearsals, the basic things that should happen in a professional type environment. and although i know that starstruck isnt professional theater i still believe that we are capable of the same respectfulness that we would give a professional artistic team (ie nancy, jeanne, lori and becky). and i mean we all have our days where we goof off and i am guilty of that as well. but this show is a huge undertaking and although i think we are doing a very good job if we didnt have to constanly repeat choreo or whatever we would be a hell of alot stronger.

love life...jokes

thats pretty much it at the moment. now for some sleep...hopefully

so i have one final to go of my first year in college. I don't know how much legit school stuff i learned but i can definitely say i have grown a lot. I have learned a lot about life and surprisingly a lot about dance and theater i didnt know...or at least a new way of looking at things.

my mother came down today and i did all my packing. i didnt realize how much shit i have accumulated over this year. its going to be a trip getting it all in our passat.


speaking of. we are buying a truck since the van broke down. jesus 2 cars in 2 months...no money for a while...

for all you in fremont or the like i will be home on thursday. mixed feelings...im hella stoked on being home and starting work and cats etc...but i am going to miss san diego A LOT...i fucking love it here :) and :(

sea world tomorrow with mom and the best sd friend :)

awkward, random post. k thanks

peace homies.

college
State is...school. i dunno i love this campus and the people but recently i have not been satisfied by the dance program. i've lost a lot of tricks and i know that that isn't what dance is about but it bothersome. but other then that i think i am going to minor in math and get a single subject teaching credential...i can't wait to be home...2 and 1/2 more weeks and i'm home!!

DZ
dz is going amazingly! i got appointed this important chair position that reports everything back to the school (SOE chair...for michelle schwem who actually knows what i'm talking about lol) and i'm super excited to live in next year but i want to know who is going to be in my room!! cuz there is one girl who is living in that i CANNOT live with. its not that i dont like her but if i live with her i will pull all of my ahir out by the end of next year

Cats
It sucks not knowing whats going on. but whatever ill be back soon

Boys
haha what a joke


:D

this is shitty.

solid foods already! f yes!

so i saw rent on friday with adam pascal and anthony rapp...AMAZING!!!!! i only cried once which was good. but it made me realize two very important things...1) i have been sooo lost in class and social shit that i had forgotten why i am doing what i am doing. i had forgotten why i wanted to perform for a living and seeing a really good show brought me back to that...2) this show made me really miss the avengers...i dunno something about it. i mean i know its cheesey cuz it is rent and the hole "always friends" thing. but i dunno...i wish we were as close as we used to be. i mean its not like we are not close friends anymore...it just we have drifted. and duh...we are all over the place now so that makes sense...i dunno i just miss it i guess...

yesterday and today i spent with my fabulous dz girls and it was much needed...i love my sisters...no one else can start a party in a random mexican resaurant...no one else can be totally awkward turtles at a random bbq...no one else can get sooooo intense at philanthropy football :)....

2 more weeks till spring break/ cats auditions/ tonsils out

this would happen. getting home from la = sickness...coughing spells and ear aches...fun fun fun. but at least the weather is getting better here. and my classes seem pretty straight forward. thats all the excitement from sd

so i'm going to be living in the house! I know that it'll be different but i am crazy excited for it! : )

i forgot how much i love my DZ sisters. we have rush training today and it was a blast...we lost alot of girls over the break though. damn economy, girls couldn't pay :( and i was talking to my big today and she hinted at her thinking about dropping as well which would be REALLY really sad. but seeing everyone today was really refreshing. i forgot about all the changes i need to make to my schedule the stupid other school shit i need to do. i plan on getting more involved with DZ this semester :)


apartment hunting soon: ) that should be great....and musical theatre audtions tomorrow & wednesday...we shall see

christmas was good. its weird i was so not stoked about christmas this year. maybe its because i am going to NEW YORK TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never been. lets say im pretty excited

so even though christmas is tomorrow im not excited for it. I JUST WANT TO BE IN NEW YORK WITH THREE OF MY BEST FRIENDS AND DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is all. i am sooooo fucking excited it is ridiculous. avenger christmas was much needed. we haven't all gotten together probably since last christmas. gouging eyes out...good times. : )

old friends are super fun! i haven't seen them in like 7 years...well ben i saw in like may but whatever. fun times with them. BUT my car is a piece of shit. the transmission is totally shot. NEW CAR?? :)


i wish.

today= house of fun/cooking extravaganza/ christmas exchange!!!  then going to see phantom with the fam. :) should be a good day

cats is going to be so legit.


that is all

so i had tonsillitis. then it felt like it got worse with the antibiotics. oh no. i had tonsillitis THEN got mono on top of it...or so they think. (i hyperventilated and passed out during the blood test making the blood invalid. other theories: mrsa in my throat this time, they gave me special antibiotics for this or a random unknown virus)  aka no voice from sunday-today (just got it back) missed a whole week of classes before finals. not good. also during this week did not get any additional work done, although i had the time, i get tired after being awake for about 3 hours and any physical activity makes me exhausted (i.e combing my hair after the shower, going to the fridge and getting a water bottle etc.) luckily i have liquid vicodin which i take religiously every 4 hours. but this medication makes me more tired. so now after basically sleeping the last 4 days i find that i have 3 papers due by email tonight, a speech on monday, 2 more paper due next wednesday, and another oral presentation next thurday. joyus.


sorry this post is all complaining. lol. being sick is frustrating.

no classes today =

catch up on sleep
catch up on homeowrk
catch up on cleaning
catch up on life...


it was nice

yay! i have officially done two 'legal' things. i have now been clubbing and i have now gotten a piercing without my mom :)

fun times.